A couple of weeks ago, Carlos commented that I seemed “more relaxed” and “happier.” I too, had noticed a change in myself, but couldn’t quite put my finger on what it was. After thinking about it for a few days, I realized that I felt less anxious. Seeing as how, for the past 6 weeks, I’ve been teaching VIPKID classes in the mornings and at night because the kids have been on summer break, it’s not due to the fact that I’ve had less work. And Sophia is at a stage where she requires more activity and stimulation than ever before. Finally, Carlos has been working more so I don’t get near as many “breaks” as I used to.
By all accounts, I should be more anxious. The only thing to which I could attribute my “more relaxed” and “happier” nature is the social media break. My self-worth and sense of importance were more linked to my social media accounts than I would have liked to admit. I also realized that I was using reactions (“likes” and comments) to my daughter’s cuteness to make me feel good about myself, and that is wrong on so many different levels. Additionally, the pressure to present myself in a way that others liked or weren’t offended by was something I thought about too much. Now, there’s no worrying that people are thinking my marriage is on the rocks because it’s been weeks since I posted a picture with Carlos, or whatever it was I used to worry about.
I was recently listening to a podcast hosted by a girl who writes a famous lifestyle blog, and she was talking about, these days, how important it is to have a “brand” and to be churning out new “content” on whatever social media platform one may have. She even went so far as to say that a person is “irrelevant” if they aren’t producing the aforementioned “content” and how no employer is looking to hire anyone without a “social media presence.” I guess it’s a good thing I’m not looking for a job, then.
I’m not here to rag on social media. I’m simply trying to talk about how much its absence has benefitted my life. I though I would see benefits in my personal life, yes, but I didn’t expect the benefits to also be noticeable to my family, and so soon. For that I am very thankful.